Posted by: lebanna on: October 11, 2009
Posted by: lebanna on: September 27, 2009
I finally gave out the mooncakes I bought for Jason’s family and his grandparents. I hope they will like it. Actually, I am quite keen in trying the soursop flavoured one. Haha. Lets see if I have the chance to.
Jason and I went to his grandparents house yesterday to deliver mooncakes. Ah gong actually commented that mooncakes nowadays cost $3 to $5. I almost fainted on the spot starring at the mooncakes I bought. As for the reason, how much do you think 2 mooncakes from intercontinental hotel cost? Haha. Now you know why. We had breakfast before going u to their house. Who knows, they bought us chicken rice. In the end, we left their house feeling bloated. Thank you Ah ma for the red packet.
Today, Jeremine, Jason and I went for a morning jog. Went to deliver mooncakes to their house after that. Finally, I got to really see how Calvin Goh look like. Wahaha. Not too handsome though. Shhh! Don’t tell him.
Feeling kind of tired today. No idea why too. Not like I did massive studying or something. Guess what? I already know that I have about 1100 samples to process tomorrow. Lets die! No lunch!
I love the new book by Dan Brown. Like his other books, it is very exciting. Can you come out with more books please? Haha. To add some colours to my life.
I love K.O. Sanguo too! It is nice nice nice. I like the fake Liu Bei. Haha. I think he makes a good pair with Sun Shang Xiang. Not like the real Liu Bei. Totally horrible.
To Jeremine, stop slacking and reading my blog. Go and study! Wahaha!
Posted by: lebanna on: September 3, 2009
It has been a long time since I updated this blog. I have bee busy with work, school and tuition. Tuition has suddenly stopped because of some argument between my tuitee and his mum. Scary experience at their house that day. I seriously have no idea how it happened. I am worried for his results but I am so happy that I have more time to do my own stuff now. Haha.
Exams are round the corner. Lots of things to study. Haiz. Francis yap! How on earth do you achieve such wonderful results?
Posted by: lebanna on: July 26, 2009
Why is it I always seem to feel that I have a problem with time management? Is it me or is it the people around me that makes me feel so? I feel like I cannot breathe and I will die anytime soon. I feel like I am suffocating. Why is it like that?
I feel that my life is not under my own control. Heaven seems to always be making fun of my life. Making life miserable for people around me and then indirectly hurting me. Why not just torture me? Is it because by making me feel guilty, it is a better way to make me feel miserable?
You complain that I don’t have time for this, for that and for everything. But I think I don’t have time for myself, for studying and for resting. Does less commitment means that I will have more time in hand? If that is so, then maybe I should just commit less.
Maybe I am just too impulsive, causing all the regrets now. Looks like I have a lot more to learn in life.
Random.
Posted by: lebanna on: May 24, 2009
Ever since she left my life, I already dreamt of her twice. I really miss her a lot. I spend time crying after I saw her in my dreams. I wished she did not had to leave my life like that. Now, I want her to nag at me, to scold me for watching drama instead of studying, for scolding me for going out too often and coming home too late. But these will never ever happen again. Not in my life anymore.
What is the perfect kind of relationship you have in mind? What is your perspective of an ideal boy/girlfriend? Maybe like he said, sometimes you have to make do with what you have because you will not neccessarily get what you really want. I crave for privacy, trust, space and care in my love one, but who can ever score full marks? The nature of human is to magnify all mistakes and faults, but not look at anything that is right. Is that what I have done?
Define intellectually stimulating.
This is a random post, and that explains the title.
Posted by: lebanna on: April 20, 2009
Cherish life when it is right in front of you. Although I did not regret anything but I really miss grandma. This is the fourth day after she has passed away.
She was the one who took care of me, brought me up, cooked for me, care for me, discipline me, everything just for me. When I was a baby, she fed me milk, changed diapers for me and played with me. I slept with her since young. We shared a bed. I enjoyed her snores, loud as thunder but a comfort to my sleep. She sewed me pyjamas, made me pillows and bolsters and my favorite quilt. When I stated going to school, she brought me to school everyday and brought me home each day. She will always buy me a bun after school from the then simei market.
When I went to primary school, she will always wait for the school bus with me, shelter me when it was raining and cook for me to eat before and after school. I always followed what she does, pluck bean sprouts, sniff in her passive smoking and imitate how she smokes. Her soups and the food she used to cook for me will never be forgotten.
When I went to secondary school, I barely had time to sleep. She was the one who stayed up with me all night until I finish my D & T drawings. She will cut me apples, pears and feed me with melon seeds so that I will not fall asleep while doing my homework. She massages for me whenever I was aching after a whole day of band practice. We eat potato chips for supper and while watching hng kong drama serials. We ordered pizza from pizza hut and eat together whenever we feel like it. Sh would always nag atme when I went home late.
When I decided to go to poly, she was the only one whom supported the idea. We shifted house and I had a room of my own. She will come down as and when she likes to chat wih me. I see her lesser each day because I become busier as time passes.
I graduated from poly and took photos with her at home with my graduation gown. She was so happy to see me graduate. I started work and gave her money to spend. At last I contributed to that.
She fell sick and we had to bring her to SGH every now and then for check-ups. I got my driving license and drive her to ntuc to buy groceries. She finally had a chance to test my driving. She went into the hospital and I went to visit her everyday. I cried and cried for her because it hurts to see her in so much pain. Finally she is discharged but she is too weak to leave the bed. She became dependent on the oxygen machine. She cannot cook me for me anymore. It breaks my heart to see her like that, but at least she is by my side and I get to see her everyday. I tell her each day if I had to work, give tuition or go for lessons.
It was 16 april 2009, thursday. I was not at work and was rushing my assignment at home. She was in great pain and could not breathe properly. I went up and held her tight, gave her an extra codeine to relief her pain, but it was only slightly relieved. She manage to finish her dinner and went to sleep. I adjusted her bed so that the phlegm in the throat does not get stuck in her throat. She was sleeping.
It was 17 april 2009, friday, 0625 hrs. The maid screamed for my mum who is downstairs in the kitchen. I was in the bathroom getting ready for work. She took 3 hard breaths, in less than a minute, before we all could go up, she left us.
She was all that I could have in my life. She was even closer to me than any other family members, and she went, leaving me here to cry for her. I miss her.
Posted by: lebanna on: March 31, 2009
From the title above, I guess all of you can see that granny is sick. Yea, that is precisely he reason why I do not have the time to update my blog. Other than going to work and school, I have to go down to the hospital almost everyday to see her. She is really sick this time. I am very afraid of losing her apprently. She is so weak, so breathless and so sad all the time. She is troubled by her illness and so are we.
Apart from all these, I took up teaching an extra subject for tuition. Same student, same place at the same rate. Just an extra physics to teach. The student is very much weaker in terms of physics. My aim is to make him score a distinction for both physics and chemistry in o levels. Is that possible, Justin?
Finally finish one of my assignments, now I have to start thinking of when to take leave to stay home to study for exams. So scary lah. So fast and it is exams again. I hope I will not die this time around. Smile.
Posted by: lebanna on: March 15, 2009
My first week of work is officially over. I am still undertraining though. I was doing bacteria culture for the past week and will be continuing the coming week. After which, they will probably put me at the nucleic acid testing department for training. Training is somewhat tough. Although they are things that we have learnt before in poly, they are hands on. nd what is mot important in this lab is probably speed and accuracy, which is still lacking in me. I guess practice makes perfect and I will try hard. So far, it is still alright to manage between work and studies and this is probably because this bioinformatics module is less demanding. The lessons are less packed and we have more time to do our work.
Just went to catc a movie last friday. Marley and me. It was a touching movie about a dog named Marley and how it has lived through its life with a family of 5. Quite a wonderful movie. Before the movie, we went to try the BBQ chicken that was situated at E hub. Overall, it was quite yummy but probably not wonderful.
I hope next week’s training would be better, as in I will be able to make progress. Jia you! Smile.
Posted by: lebanna on: March 8, 2009
The blood bank has called me back and I will be starting work over there tomorrow. Hmmm, I am not exactly excited, but at least I am happy that there will be some income. I don’t want to stay home all day like what my dad said and take allowance from him. It makes me feel useless and I bet I will end up lazing around instead of studying.
I started school yesterday. The professor was a good one, someone from Australia. He is a bit fast in teaching but willing to slow down when we ask him to. However, looking through the notes during lesson yesterday, makes me feel that the module is quite difficult. Fainted. I wonder how much studying I will have to do for this module. Results for the previos modules are not even out yet. Very very scary…
Posted by: lebanna on: March 3, 2009
My 21st birthday has passed and I am officially an adult. Haha. I will not say that I will have to be more responsible blah blah blah, because I believe I have lived my life like an adult already. I think I am responsible for my actions and all that an adult should do. Haha. Thick skin right?
Well, I had many separated birthday treats and parties. Nope, I did not have a chalet and invite everyone to smash cake on me (unlike someone ah).
It all begin with the birthday celebration with Mei Lin at fish & co. A simple meal and a simple birthday wish. I even forgot to take photos with her. Thank her for the perfume.
I celebrated with my family a week earlier and lawry’s. The beef there was super yummy! But also super expensive! None of the main course there was below $60. Even our 6 bottles of plain drinking water cost more than $40. Crazy right. Thank daddy for the meal and the key pendant, thank mummy for the laptop and thank my brothers for the gps system.
Then it was a lunch with Jeremine at ma maison. The food there was yummy, the ambience was good and the furnish was even better! I like it there. It feels really cosy. Thank her for the levis jeans and the meal.
Following on is the dinner at carousel with the SERI ex-colleagues. I never expect that they will still keep me in their group even when I have left SERI for more that half a year. I remember celebrating my 20thbirthday at work with them. Thank you girls and Li Wei jie jie for the wonderful evening of laughters and the meal.
Finally, it was my birthday itself. Had lunch with Jason at Cafe Swiss. The food there was not bad and there were not many people, which was good. I don’t like crowds. Jason just ordered without knowing what he ordered. The funny expression came when I questioned him about what he ordered. Haha. Thank Jason for the meal and the camera.
Following on was the birthday cake cutting session at home. The cake was from canele. Strawberry shortcake. Pretty and yummy! Good good!
Supper was on Aunty Carol. Haha. Not used to calling her that. They purposely got together at Mac to celebrated the last hour of my birthday. Thank Aunty Carol for the Mac meal and thank Aunty Shirley for the macflurry.
Farhan…you still owe me ah. And Francis Yap, don’t think you can run away. So what if you are at Aussie. You have to pay back 6 years of birthday prezzies at one go ah.
Bioinformatics module is starting in 7 march. Sounds scary. No idea how it is going to be like this time. The results for the last 2 modules are not even out. So slow lah.
Smile people. Have a good day!
